"Tap, Tap Tap, Keep Moving..."

You wouldn’t think I would have much to celebrate. After 4 miscarriages, 2 in the last year, that there would not be much but…

After the first two, I decided that enough was enough and I finally let God control my life. It wasn’t mine after all and I decided to let His plan lead me. Well to my surprise I conceived again and thought “Aha!” This is the miracle that He wanted, He took control and once I let Him do that miracles happened! Then... 3 months later it was all taken away. I felt like I had been punched in the gut by the person I trusted the most. The sting was so painful, I didn’t understand. How was I going to recover? How could God do this to me? Then it was time for last year’s Celebration Sunday and choir practices. I didn’t want to go; I didn’t want to sing at all and I did not want to sing for God who I felt betrayed me… Then I started getting a persistent feeling and I nudging like “Tap Tap Tap” on my shoulder. “ Tap, tap tap, Go To Choir” it said. I tried to ignore it but I couldn’t. So I went. The first song I saw was “I Have a Hope” I thought “Are you kidding me???” Was this a joke? Then “Tap, Tap Tap” again… Was this God’s way of telling me “It’s OK, Do Not Give Up, I am here.” ? Through tears I stayed to sing and to sing on Celebration Sunday last year. I realized through the healing that my passion was really singing and songwriting, Something I had known all along but never truly followed until now. I believe that this was the path God has always wanted me to follow and despite my pain I am coming out the other side, finding my true passion in life. When I am feeling down, I always hear/feel the nudging “Tap Tap Tap Keep Moving, keep singing” God is there helping me along. I want to acknowledge and celebrate that He has helped me get through the hard times and lead me to the good times. Though I still may not understand, I know that He is always here and He never abandoned me in my time of need. He has given me many blessings, my health, my job, my house etc. Children may not be written in His plan for me, but I am sure that music is and I celebrate that I have finally embraced this path!